Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Counting our Blessings 11/26/13

  Even though it doesn't look like we'll make it home to BrightWood for Thanksgiving this year, we have much to be thankful for.  You're alive and strong. Your lid is intact and in place where we desperately want it to stay.  And tonight you are back with us, resting quietly while Ziggy Marley sings for you and the ICU nurses.  

But you gave us all a huge scare this morning, Forrest.   It must have been terrifying for you, not knowing what was happening or why or if the seizures that took control of your body would  keep coming.  "Stay with me. Find my eyes. Hold on. You are strong. You're safe. We won't let anything happen to you." I try to reassure us both. Between the seizures you drift somewhere far away.  You can't  focus, find my eyes with yours. or squeeze my hand.  Then the monitors scream again as the next seizure overtakes you, your temperature soars to 104.4 and your heart rate hits 195. I feel the wild palpatations with my hand resting on your chest. How fast can the human heart race?  The room fills with doctors, residents, PAs and nurses. Many familiar faces from your prior visits.  We can see the concern on their faces as questions fly between them and orders are given. Ativan IV releases your muscles from the seizures' grasp. And you drift away again. You are transfered to ICU for closer observation where a well meaning nurse, unfamiliar with our Team Forrest culture, tries to gently escort me to a waiting room. Sorry this MaMa Bear is not leaving your side.  Fortunately for both of us, nurses who have shared long nights with your team appear to reassure her that we will help rather than hinder your care. For hours your Pops and I sit by your side watching the monitors, telling you stories, mostly of your escapades with Austin, your amazing recovery, and reading to you dozens of messages from your family and friends. You can't move your arms or legs. Or respond to us or your nurses.  You can't speak.  

That was the most frightening time.  We felt the terror of loosing you again. Thankfully,  CAT scans and blood tests ruled out the worst possibilities. Blood cultures are still pending, but the doctors believe now that your body's reaction to all of the surgical manipulation resultied in high fevers causing the string of seizures. As the Ativan wore off, you began to stir and all of a sudden you stretched , yawned and opened your eyes looking right into mine like "where have you been?"  You squeezed my hand and my heart soared. Your nurse stepped back into the bay and was startled to see you gazing back at her.  We were both thrilled to hear you whisper your name. You are our Come Back Kid.  Sweet Dreams, Champ. Tomorrow we will give thanks again. 

With love and gratitude for the many family members, friends, caring nurses and skilled doctors who collectively got us through this day.  God bless. 

Mum



15 comments:

  1. What a day.....we sent up lots of prayers knowing a crisis was happening. Now we know more of the details. Bless your hearts. What a champ he is indeed. Hoping for a healing night... We, too, are thankful tonight.

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  2. Thankful the scary part is over, Forrest. Hang in there and keep healing. Looking forward to meeting Toliver at Brightwood soon! Love and Prayers.

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  3. Forrest... You gave us a scare. So sorry for this hurdle but we know you will be right back at it in no time! Happy to see you are better tonight. Sleep well and heal. Love you! Grandma Norma

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  4. Stay strong bro! Two days ago on the phone you challenged me to a snowball fight next month, so I'm holding you to that. See you soon buddy, stay strong and keep blowing away the nurses with your charm. :)

    -Austin

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  5. Rae, As a mother, my heart aches for your pain. Your strength and courage shows in Forrest 'come back kid' ability. Please know there are lots of us that don't know you but admire you, your family and especially Forrest. I will be anxiously awaiting to hear how you obtain snow for Forrest to clobber Austin in a snowball fight!! :) pam Chauvin

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  6. My thoughts and particularly my prayers are with all of you. I send ample doses of strenghth, perseverence and stamina to all.May God bless all the Team Forrest members and provide them with guidance, assurance and strength

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  7. Kent, Rae, Austin and Forrest, you remain in my thoughts and prayers every day, and I am confident that Forrest will overcome this situation. You are an Inspiration to us all! Sue Smith

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  8. Forrest, thinking of you buddy! Stay strong and never give up! I know you will get through this as you have done so in the past! Sending hugs, kisses and love!! You, Austin, Rae and Kent will always remain in our prayers. Much love!
    Mita

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  9. You and your family don't know me-I work at Foxcroft School and first heard of Forrest through his friends Clancy and Montana. I have followed your journey ever since. May this be a small blip on your journey. I am so inspired by the love and devotion your family shows to one another. May your strength and love be shining examples to others. I have no doubt that you will conquer this and be back on track in no time.

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  10. Hi Forrest,
    You are in our thoughts everyday and we are pulling for you each and every grueling step. Can't wait to see that smile again. You have 11 days to get home and get ready to meet new puppy Twix. He flies in on Wednesday morning (one week from today) and we are coming for a visit on saturday. He'll only be 8 weeks and small enough to cuddle in your lap! Your Toliver needs to give him a pep talk about being a service dog. Keep up the healing Forrest. See you soon.
    Colleen

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  11. H Forrest and Team....More and more positive thoughts are streaming your way...use them all to build your strength and endurance when you and the team need a shoulder to lean on....keep on fighting!!! Your personal strength and the strength of the whole team will get you over this hurdle and on to the finish line.....love, Sharon benson

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  12. I was at the C.C.I. Graduation , turning in Noble for Advanced training.
    We wish you a SPEEDY recovery and hope you are back home SOON.
    Scott, mary and Peace

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  13. Hi Forrest and team. You have all been in my thoughts all day today. I've sent many prayers up for a quick recovery. So glad you were able to focus on your Mum and the nurse when you woke up. Many people at church are praying for you, too. Keep the faith and keep pushing onward!

    Love and Prayers,

    Joyce Ellis

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  14. I have to say you are an awesome fighter but you also have a great set of parents. Your mom and dad are the best, the love they have for you is unreal. Looking at this picture says it all! Keep fighting Forrest and all of us in Missouri is pulling and praying for you!
    Barbara Hill

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  15. Dear Forrest,

    Happy Thanksgiving! I am thankful today that you've made it through your latest operation successfully, and that the worst is behind you. I have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers this Thanksgiving. I am also thankful for the inspiration that I have found in you and your family's great strength and resilience. I hope you all have a wonderful day.

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